Wow, I wasn't really moved or anything by the coming of the new year. But as I signed into DA today, I noticed all the cheer of either having a good year, or a bad year being over. Never thought about it till now, but in my life, this has to have been the biggest year I've had.
~~~~Started off the new year 2010 by going to a Three Days Grace concert with my ex. A quickie on the way home lead to a full blown melt down for one reason or another, and I overdosed on Ativan. I was out of it for days. My friends still tease me about calling them up and telling them all about the weird strings coming out of my fingers.... -.-'
Started sleeping with a friend, Yargendar, from my social group, who consequently was in love with my best friend. Was okay at first, then I became sick of being number 2, so dumped his ass.
Met Harm. Pretty cool guy from Alberta. Tattoos, piercings, most amazing eyes, funny, really liked me, co-worker (uh oh) and attitude problem. We last almost two months, but by the end it got ugly.
Got back together with Yargendar, as a real relationship, cause apparently me telling him where to fuck himself made him 'fall madly in love' with me. Was nice at first, but now that I had him, I realized, I REALLY did not want him. He still had to much growing up to do.
We've covered from Jan to start of July. In this time, I had slept with another co-worker multiple times, strictly sex, both at his place and in the first aid room at work. XD Bold, eh? I slept with my other best friend's boyfriend....again (see 2009 -.-''). I am such a bitch. Any consolation to her, they technically were on a break every time. Also had sex with my ex, the one who sent me into a melt down at beg. Of year a few times.
I held a part time job, nearly full time through all this time. Still lived at home, with my mum and two younger siblings. My mother is deathly ill, so I've been taking care of things for years. Gets stressful at times, but no other options, that is what family does. (one reason Harm and I broke up, he wanted me to stop taking care of everything and LIVE)
July. I meet Matt. If I start to write about him seriously, it will go on in a terrible ramble for many many pages. So I'll try to keep it short.
Met him through mutual friends, we were fuck buddies, then basically roommates, and now, when he gets back from the coast tomorrow, he needs to decide if we are going to date, or If I am leaving. We have a good thing, roommates, bestfriends who have the best sex ever!! But I want him to be mine, with no worries.
WOW. I had to re-write that from two pages. Told you I'd rambled.
Now lets back up. My mother and I FIGHT like crazy. Almost killed her a few times myself. But shhh.
In August, I moved out (in a "You walk out that door, don't come back!!" "OOOOOKAAAAY" kinda way) in with my friend. I rent out a room for a low rent. Pretty great. I also quit my other job, and got a great one as a front desk receptionist at a popular Resort. (I live in the Okanagan, on the lake, a high tourist destination) AWESOME. Still here. Ups and downs, but good.
So. This year, I've been a slut. Moved out. Got a good job that pays well. Turned legal age, and gone clubbing. Smoke...just quit. (let's try and keep it that way). Discovered I have a name for an illness I've had since birth. Cyclic Vomiting Syndrome. Made new friends, lost old ones. One good terms with my mother now. Tried to kill myself a few times (but they were intentional tries...if I wanted too, I would've succeeded). Gotten help (not really, just more drugs). And yeah. I've succucfully rambled on today, and am happy that I can do this. RAMBLED AWAY ON DA, and whether or not anyone reads it, it pleases me that I've made a bunch of friends here this year. One who I hope to save one day soon from her misery.
Anywaaaaaaaaaaaays, BEST OF LUCK THIS YEAR!!
^ That is as positive about life as you'll ever see me.
huh, at the end of this, doesn't seem very big. But it really was.